We must be flexible, as things do not and cannot stay the same.
When I opened this web site up roughly 9 years ago, I had named it 'Indigo & the angels: coming out of the spiritual closet', for, at that time, I had a deep urge to share my awakening path with others who may be on the same path - but hadn't reached the moment in themselves of acknowledging their new reality as truth.
I named it coming out of the spiritual closet because I had no other terminology for what was happening to me. I had no real dialogue with anyone in real life of which to share the exact communications which were occurring to me on a daily basis, by beings who would feel to me as if they were angels.
Recently, I have taken a hiatus from writing online, and instead have progressed in my own inner world for some humbling and interesting shifts and changes. I have observed the way people can meet a limit within themselves, to ensure they are firmly bolted in a material world. Even when they are wakening into another reality, bit by tiny bit and piece by tiny piece - perhaps there is no one to share with for fear of sounding crazy? The thing I have noticed is this: When you find a level of truth within yourself, you are kidding yourself on if you do not support that truth in your daily life. I can see the way that people refuse to look at their own pain and trauma, instead opting for some mind numbing in order to retain a status quo of life 'comforts.' Isn't it easier to use alcohol to relax, than it is to find alternative ways of staying completely lucid, and working your way through the journey? Can you imagine what it might look like if you took back your own control of your own life, as much as you are able, and give your gifts to those in your life? Are you aware that having a human body on earth is actually one of the most coveted things in the galaxy? If you knew that, you would enlist your own inner support team more often. You would look after it, you would be grateful.
A truth is, that many lightworkers, starseeds and crystals aka spiritual path seekers are being kept from knowing of their true origins by the game played here in society. The game of - it's OK to hide who you are, no one would ever believe you anyway so come on stuff your pain down deeper and let's get back to night clubbing, drugs and alcohol. The other side of that coin is the keeping yourself in your own prison of belief systems and attempting to deal with huge painful circumstances by acting as society expects you should. The trouble with that one is, that's a short cliff path to a long fall, and a painful one in the process.
'No, God, I didn't get done what I said I would because I found the pressures of daily life too much when I got to earth and to be honest with you that White Zinfandel is much more addictive than I first realised, and no one told me how to look after my energy so I just went with it, and I am a great dancer when I get a wine in me. AND by the way mate - what's this with sending the spirit guides every night, they didn't half keep me off my sleep this lifetime! Don't worry I just told them where to go. I've got no interest in that foolishness'.
It's ironic that when you start to realise your awareness of reality is much, much different than before - that when you share with your own friends, they start to question your sanity. I am wondering if you are reading this right now, and you feel you cannot express your reality to your family using your own truth because they would 'label' you as crazy? But, it's OK to talk about Angels, because angels are fluffy and help us get things in life we need. Or if you want to speak to passed on loved ones, and bring their messages through. These are helpful modalities indeed, but yet there are so many other ways in which you can work with spirit (within yourself and others, and spirit without a body) in order to support the shifts we are aiming towards on earth.
Over the last many years of my life, things for me and my perceptions of what 'reality' truly is have shifted vastly, in order that I learn and understand how to decode our reality. Each of us is accessing and decoding a different individual version of reality. That's why it is quite difficult to have it written and understood by many. I guess it's akin to living in the Matrix, but we are unable to see that because we are kept like Zombies in routines and controlling mechanisms which keep us blocked from accessing our true spiritual nature.
So I guess, it becomes a game of finding your own truth, and holding yourself accountable to finding that out with all of your heart.
I am recalling in a kind of fond way, in which beings would just drop into my livingroom a number of years ago, to tell me things about myself, in a way that I needed to know what I was doing here, on earth.
'Hi, Mum. Yeah, those beings called the white brotherhood came to visit me again last night. No, they didn't have bodies Mum...They were here to tell me something I needed to know....'
When you get this type of visitation it's quite difficult to deny their existence. Can you imagine that they had travelled a million light years just to send a code, and when they got here I had just not acknowledged their presence, - especially since earth dimensions are so dense, and they were literally using their last lithium Crystal in which to contact me? Can you? This story ends well. You see, I couldn't ignore the communication I was having with these beings or other beings who just happened to pop in to wake me up.
'We came like you asked us to. Yes, in the year 2525, just like we agreed. We have travelled by hook and by crook to get to you. Here is the piece of code you need in order to help the world, like you asked us to......'
Literally wake me up to remember. It's the reason this website exists, to support others who think they are losing a sense of reality, and to prove - you are not. Not everyone who is on this path is running about the mountain trying to solve the Mt Chiliad mystery, with their flowing capes and helicopters.
Working with Guides
I've met with people who do exactly what their spirit guides instruct them to do, and will not veer off the path of that. I have met people who have said - oh my guide is telling me they are not happy with the healing work you are doing to me. If you have a guide - why would you ever think that the guide knows more about anything than you do? I have been tricked by guides who would present themselves to me as a certain 'being' and it turns out, they were not that 'being' they were sent to keep me from seeing the truth. So, if you have a guide, you can have a great relationship with the guide - but you should also learn to know your OWN mind, as the guide should never wish to override your thoughts, should never ask to enter your body to channel, should never 'tell' you what to do.
Once you know this, your guides can work in co-partnership with you, and they will ultimately respect your own inner guidance over any guidance that they offer you with. Although Guides are a nice introduction to the spirit world, they do NOT have ownership over you. You must retain a boundary between you. If you are becoming 'dependant' on your guide, (oh, I can't do that until my guide tells me it's OK) then you must ask yourself - what are you getting from this arrangement/friendship? Know thy boundaries. You come first. The reason is this - if you are relying on another being or person outwith yourself, then you are not learning to trust yourself and your own power. Sure, some guides are helpful, but not all are. Guides can support you in your own life, but you also have to support yourself and realise something: guides are not more powerful than you are.
Figuring out your life purpose
Everything you have ever done is part of your own life purpose. Whether or not you believe it. I'd say following a truthful heart path is one of the only ways in which you can find yourself and you have to be honest with yourself. When you dig down and face up to all of your seeming bad points, all of your good points you are finding out what you are made from. From that point, it will be harder for others to manipulate you, and you will know your own mind better than before. This is the important part. It means trying your best to do good in every situation, and not telling lies in any situation. It means, deciding not to manipulate another person to obtain the outcome you want to achieve - no matter what. No matter if you are aware that they are trying to manipulate you. Playing in this energy is like inviting imposters and tricksters into your own energy field - yet, you might not see them for what they are - because you are the same as they are.
Life purposes for spiritual path followers are varied and can change and shift through consciousness absorption from ones own energy fields in higher dimensions. What keeps us from knowing our life purpose, is that we are mind wiped upon entry into planet earth into a human body. We must try to regain knowledge through experiences and reading, and then this triggers a knowing deep in our hearts.
Waking up to the wider cause, Close Encounters
Did you ever have a friend who said that ET beings had visited her in the night and you just didn't believe her because there's no way that could be true? Let me be that friend. The way it's all portayed in movies is really just another way to code it in our minds how scary all that stuff is. Did you ever have a friend who hunted UFOs in order to make contact with them, cos it seemed like fun? Maybe that person was you. We deny the existence of things because our eyes can't just 'see' them.
Not everything that exists can be decoded and 'seen' by the human eye. But, many things can be. We vibrate in different frequency spectrums that other lifeforms exist within, we are sharing the space without always the clarity of understanding to know this.
There are just as many ET agendas as there are human ones, and until we come together to speak about our awareness as spiritual humans, everything will remain hidden and underground and the generations of our kids who have come as starseeds to this planet in order to shift consciousness might repeat the same cycles because they had no real role models to talk it all through with. We have UFO groups on facebook, we have people who had experiences, we have people talking about implants and we have some who are terrified, and all of the above is reality. Each of us is accessing different frequencies of energy which make up OUR OWN VERSION of reality, therefore when I saw an ET in my bedroom standing over me, it didn't mean anyone else could see that too.
Why would some of us have this part in our reality? and not others?
Why do so many people hide their knowledge of the beings from other races and planets?
I am reckoning that when one speaks of intergalactic beings as visitors into the home space, that it seems a bit too out there, and in honesty - a bit too scary for some. Many people are not given the information that they actually have themselves sourced consciousness's from other planets and decided to come to earth to help earth and inhabitants out a bit. You can see why, can't you? Lots of individuals channel archangels, what if they were actually ET beings too? Parts of the world are having wake ups, and other parts are not having that much. What if you were an ET but you just had a human body this time round and your space start family was coming to give you a hug but you got too scared and shut yourself down into this reality again?
Heart Consciousness and above
The best thing that ever happened was to feel true love as a frequency. Best felt when the heart is truly open.
How would we know if our heart was not open? Hearts get closed for any number of reasons, but the biggest reason I can think of is the shut down that happens when we are not able to do the thing that we feel deep inside, and we start to begin shutting off the heart connection to ourselves, and then to others around us. A deep frustration can build up slowly over many years, and then we can find ourselves unwilling to be open to anyone or anything, feeling more safe in our hidden walls which we carefully place around us in order to retain our position in life. We feel love frequencies in different stages, and it feels different as we work with different energies in our own bodies. Can you imagine waking up one morning and knowing without a shadow of a doubt, that you were connected to every living thing in the whole world, and that you could feel it in your bones?
Having a happy heart doesn't mean that life is all rosy and sweet every moment of every day - but it means your capacity to feel love, and to let it flow to every person you meet, it's available. Love is often confused with desire or a sexual interaction request, when that could not be further from the truth. Imagine when you embraced your own spiritual quest for truth and where did I come from, why am I here questions, that this is a direct hotline to opening up more of your luminous broadband fibres of heart-hugs and love, for all of our fellow humans and beings on earth? And, not forgetting our star family, they can see that love shining brightly from your home planet where they patiently await your return.
Help! My friends think I am from another planet
So, your friends figured it out before you did, huh? I am sure you had to live and still live with different awarenesses about reality and you don't quite feel safe enough to share that info with anyone, and the main cause is you are terrified of being judged, and people might actual not speak to you again, keep their child from speaking to you because you are so crazy with that secret magic power, and you just know that you should keep it all to yourself this time around.
Well, you know what? The reason that we are in this mess on earth is with people keeping stuff to themselves and going hidden in the depths of their own little groups and trying to out do each other with different methods of the greatest thing you have ever tried, and all that jazz. If you are struggling with this, or you have in depth spiritual knowledge, or you are actively being attacked in the nighttime for your etheric travel work except it is manifesting as crazy anxiety attacks and drainage of life force energy from your body and your dreams are crazy and you do not know how to cope - RELAX. You are not alone, and you are just going through some dark arts training, until you can learn and understand how to get your own energy into balance, and let me share with you a great technique in which you can do that.
Command your own space (your lightbody, your house, your home here on earth)
Many of us are taught to ground with white light which we bring down into our crown chakra. I do not advise this method of 'grounding'. Here is my method, and it builds, it builds and it builds, and it stabilises over time into a very safe and secure area of which to live and be, and you take it with you anywhere you go, it's your lightbody.
If you ever felt woozy or very light headed during energy work giving or receiving, I would ask you to stop what you are doing and attempt to understand what is going on. You are in control and sole charge of your own life force energies, but we didn't get the manual of how to secure our own boundaries. Astral energies feel heavy and bliss like, and these are not natural organic life force energies. More often than not, these are energies which are attempting to feed from your light, and you want to stop that at all costs - otherwise you will be a blissed out mess and will avoid dealing with any painful stuff that you find yourself having to deal with in life. You will be stuck in a weird place of thinking everything is love and light, and it's actually not that when you look around you in real life.
My method comes from working with the own light of your own lightbody in higher dimensions. Everyone has this, but they do not know that it exists, as it has been hidden. When you don't know something exists you cannot connect with it, much like that 12th dimensional aspect of your own individual soul. It's waiting up there for you to say Hii, and if you haven't done that yet, so now is the time. When you connect with your own 12th Dimensional layer, you are saying 'I connect with the highest aspect of my soul, and you are inviting that energy source to become more readily available to your physical human body', it also builds layers and levels in your own spiritual bodies that allows you to become more resilient to psychic attack. Here is the link to the video, in which Lisa Renee describes the full process. I recommend you follow this at least twice per day, and you will begin to feel differently in a very positive way. You won't feel blissed out with astral heaviness, and you will know better which thing is right for you in life and which is not.
This method supports you to build your own lightbody, which becomes a structured part of your existence here on earth, and opens you up into higher levels of intuition and knowingness. As you work with this shielding process, you can then use it in your own home (for it is a part of your energy) that you build like a container, and it becomes a quiet space without beings passing through to eat a piece of your light today.
12D Shield - Lisa Renee
So that's it for today. I hope you are doing well on your path, if you are years on the path or just starting out to become more aware of what is actually going on here in your own reality. Perhaps none of this is in your reality, and that's OK. As I said - each of us is doing our own quantum leaping into our own realities, and these cannot be compared to anyone else's reality. If you require support in your shifting reality or awareness I offer an energy healing service in which I can read your soul energy and support you in becoming more clearer on your own path here. We are here to support earth in the ever shifting, ever changing ways that are required of now. This is what the ascension process is really about, and we need to step into our highest ability that supports us to carry out our life missions for that cause, in the best way that we can.
If we refuse to follow our heart path, then a path will be laid out before us. We can pave the tiny steps and take a long time, or we can pave slightly larger and braver steps and reach a level of integration in perfect time. You will find out, that you will be supported in ways that you never thought were possible, and you can drop the fear from your lightbody in order to support you in your highest expression here on earth. You don't have to write about it online though, but rest assured someone will, and you will be supported via that method also.
With much Love, support and understanding,